Life is a funny thing. It can throw you a curveball when you least expect it. That happened to me 17-years-ago. My husband and I were finally building the home we dreamed about, and I had just had my second child. I was happy, very happy, but suddenly – the curveball came – my health began to fall apart.
I had developed my first-ever bladder infection and even though the infection was treated, over and over, the pain never went away and actually became more and more intense with time. My husband took me to specialists from New York to Maryland to California. I was eventually diagnosed with an incurable disease, but no one could stop the pain. During this time, I struggled to get through my days.
I am happy to say that with God directing us, I was eventually able to get better. It was a very difficult time in my life and I don’t like to talk about it much. It’s hard for me to look back at my photo albums and remember how sick I was for 10 years. When I look at photos instead of remembering the good times, I remember the pain I felt and it’s hard for me. I don’t even like to share much about that time of my life with others.
The reason I am sharing this tid bit of personal information is because I want others to know that it was way more than I could handle, and only with God was it possible to endure.
At times, people would try to comfort me by saying, “God won’t give you more than you can handle”. I have to share with you that this is simply not true and when people would say it, it certainly didn’t make me feel any better. The verse that this is taken from is 1 Corinthians 10:13, “No temptation has overtaken you except what is common to mankind. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can endure it.” This verse was written by Paul to the church in Corinth. He was telling them that everyone will struggle with sin and the devil enticing them to do evil, but God will always provide a way out, if they look to Him.
When the same verse is used when someone is suffering physically, it is being misused. On the contrary, we DO face circumstances at times, beyond our choice, that is too much for us to handle on our own. That’s where Jesus comes in.
What I have found was, when I was at my lowest point, God was with me. He was with me when my husband would leave for work, despite me hanging onto his pants legs and begging him not to go, because I was too sick to care for the boys. He was there when I was screaming in agony in my backyard, and didn’t care who heard. He was there when I was found face down on the cold concrete, and didn’t even know I was there because I was in so much pain. He was there when I got bad test results, and wasn’t sure how to carry on. He was there when I was alone, and thought no one really cared. He was there, holding me up, when it was impossible for me to hold myself.
I’m not the only one who has faced more than I could handle alone. Paul said in 2 Corinthians 1:8-9, “We do not want you to be uninformed, brothers and sisters, about the troubles we experienced in the province of Asia. We were under great pressure, far beyond our ability to endure, so that we despaired of life itself. Indeed, we felt we had received the sentence of death. But this happened that we might not rely on ourselves but on God.”
I’m certain that many of you are going through something that is bigger than you right now and you are wondering what is wrong with you that you can’t seem to handle this. Just know that you are not meant to handle things ON YOUR OWN. God is ready and waiting to be your stronghold, tower of strength, comforter, healer, companion, Savior, and friend. He wants to be these things to you and so much more.
Are you facing something you think you can’t handle alone? Guess what, you’re right! You can’t do it alone. You weren’t even designed to. God says, “apart from me, you can do nothing” (John 15:5), but “with God, everything is possible” (Matthew 19:6). Don’t rely on yourself, instead, rely on God.